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“Our destiny hinges on a mindset for bold action.”

2015, had only just begun, and yet, I already felt like I needed something more, in my life.  I hated my  job.  My supervisor, made my life, very difficult.  He was an expert in using scare tactics, to keep me, constantly in fear.  Every night, I would say a prayer before I walked into the workplace, hoping that tonight wouldn’t be worst than the night before.  During my shift, I would purposely stay out of his way, to avoid having any unnecessary confrontation with him.  He would schedule me to work, almost every weekend, deny most of my vacation request, and if for some reason, he accepted it, he would make me pay for it, when I returned.  When I requested to go on my annual vacation to Trinidad, for carnival, and was denied, I knew that I could no longer allow my life to be controlled by an insecure and mentally and physically, abusive man.  Without a back up plan and barely a cent in my banking account, I put in my 2 weeks noticed, and finally decided to take control, of my life.

A month after leaving my job, I had all the time to concentrate on my business.  Brass & Sassy doesn’t bring in a steady income, but what it does bring is fulfillment, purpose and most importantly, passion.  I was so unhappy with the direction, in which my life choices were leading me, that I moved into radical action.  “But a certain degree of insanity and recklessness is necessary to advance or innovate anything, to make any new remarkable or meaningful contributions.”  Now while I don’t recommend everyone, in my position, to quit a job without some financial backing and employment, in the waiting, I will say that  it takes desperation and a willingness to succeed, by any means necessary.  When I quit my job, I knew that I would invest my life into making my business a success.  Along the way, I have made major moves, and also mistakes.  I’ve ventured onto other endeavors, while still maintaining the hunger to succeed.  Am I financially, better off, then I was, prior to me leaving my job, no, but what I am is truly happy and in control of my life and the decisions, that I make.

Some of the greatest people of our time, didn’t get to where they are, now, but following the rules.  By playing it safe and smart.  Many had to starve, sleep in their car, sell their personal belongings to pay the rent, all for the sake of pursuing their passion.  Could I have stuck it out and allowed myself to deal with my work environment and think of the positive aspects, that I encountered, while being there?  Yes, but I didn’t want to.  I already wasted valuable years, persuading myself, that things will get better.  When I knew that I couldn’t wait, till it did, I took whatever, inner strength, I had within me, and moved into radical action.  I heard the naysayers, who tried to fill my head with doubt and fear, but being the person that I am, I allowed myself to make my own choices.  I still stand behind my choice, though there are days when I have no money and my account is overdrawn.  There are days  when I have to borrow money from my parents and my daughters father.  There are days when I can’t afford to go out with my friends.  It’s the risk you take, to pursue your passion.  I’ve become patient, with the process of it all.  I’m not intimidated, by my bank account, or the fact that I have to budget my life.  I know that the day will come, when the hard work, will eventually pay off and the sacrifice, will be worth the pain.



On my blog, “Pieces of Patty”, I wrote about synchronicity and I how it’s been so strong, since I had my daughter.  The frequency level has been its’s strongest, this year and I rely on numbers and signs to lead me to the direction, for which I shall go.  Today, I saw 555, at 5:55.  I don’t usually see that number.  I often see 111, 1111, 222, so I decided to look it up, to get a better understanding, of its meaning.

“Angel Number 555 tells of significant and necessary changes happening in your life that have been divinely inspired and guided.  These changes will bring about long-awaited circumstances and results and will fully align you with your true divine life purpose and soul mission”

I’ve learned to understand the importance of change and that we all need it, to bring about growth to carry us through our journey, in life.  Lately, I’ve been reevaluating my circle, whether it be friends, family, and associates.  For the most part, I’m very content, with the people in my life, but there are some people, that I truly feel, need to either be held at arms length, or removed entirely.  I have so much respect and admiration and love for those that are closest to me.  But I realize that some aren’t capable of doing the same.  And realizing this hurts.  I’m a very sensitive person, though my outside appearance and outspoken ways, may say differently.  When I feel like I can’t trust you, or your love for me isn’t genuine, I begin to remove myself.  Seeing 555, made me realize that it was once again, time to do some cleaning, and reevaluating.  It’s either I accept people for who they are, or tell them, they have served their purpose and go our separate ways.  I’m not one, to stay in unhealthy relationships, for long.  My happiness means so much to me, that I’m willing to disconnect myself from anyone or anything, that threatens to take it away.

“Angel Number 555 is a message from your angels that it is time to let go of the old that is no longer positively serving you.  Trust that they will be replaced with better.  Release old doubts, fears and perceived obstacles, and if feeling any fears or confusion, ask for support and guidance from your angels.  Know your angels are with you, always”

Your vibe attracts your tribe, and we may not realize that though we may not behave in the same manner, their vibrations affect you too.  If my true divine purpose in life, is to be surrounded by those that are moving in the same wavelength as me, I’m more than willing to make it happen.  It took me a long time to leave an unhealthy relationship, which I didn’t know I would have the strength to do, but I did it, but I’m much happier than I’ve ever been.  You have to truly believe the you are deserving of all good things.  It’s not given to a select few, but to EVERYONE.  It doesn’t matter what you may have done in the past.  I always felt like good things didn’t happen to me, because I was being punished for things I did in the past.  So not true!  It’s until I began to truly love myself, is when I realize that I’m worthy and deserving of love.  The fear of being alone has kept so many of us stagnant in unhealthy situations.  I find my greatest strength in silence.  God talks to me constantly, in silence.  Allow yourself to be open and willing to love yourself more than you are willing to love anyone else.  Let go of the illusion of fear, and allow the angels to guide you.